NOONE CAN MAKE YOU FEEL INFERIOR

Noone Can Make you feel Inferior without Your Consent ~~Eleanor Roosevelt

That quote above is my favorite of all time.  It is difficult to learn and to live, but once you do, your life will forever be changed.  I am NOT a skinny gal by any means. I am not classically beautiful by "media" standards. I have been bullied by a former boyfriend. He abused me in many ways. I gained over 100 lbs while I was with him.  With each pound, I grew more depressed, more introverted, and more scared - of EVERYTHING.  This guy was your typcial wonderful guy up front, showeered me with gifts, was alays smiling, made me feel spsecial. The abuse starts after he "had" me. I had moved to a different state to live with him. I was nowhere near my family.  I knew noone and I had no friends there.  he was all I had and that is exactly how he wanted it.  It takes time and you don't realize it is happeneing...for me it was about 6 years later that I realized what happened.

It was right before my 28th birthday that I rwalized what had happened to me over the last 6 years.  I was with an abusive man.  I thought I could "fix" him.  In reality, noone can be fixed if they dont want to be. He daid he loved me, but when you love someone you don't keep them down, make them feel bad, and scare them into staying for fesr of their life.  Again, this is what happened to me.

The day I left him, was the scariest day of my life.  I truly thought he was going to kill me.  He was angry.  He threatened me.  I told him he could kill me or I was walking out the door, but I wasn't staying with him another minute. I left him FAT, DEPRESSED, MISERABLE, SCARED, and ALONE.  I can tell you that I do understand and know what depression can do to a person.  

Once I left, I didnt know what to do.  I found a job.  I found an apartment.  I was still depressed and pretty scared and VERY alone.  It was a while but I read a book that made all the sense in the world to me, that helped me.  It is strange but that Eleanor Roosevelt quote helped me immensely.  These are the MOST true words EVER.  The ONLY way someone can MAKE you feel bad about yourself is if you let them.  You have the power how you react to someone saying good or bad things.  Being nice or bullying you.  Those words changed my life.  Now, anytime I start to think that someone has MADE me feel bad, sad, or angry- I realize that I am ALLOWING it by reacting in that manner.  It took a LOT of years, a LOT of practice, and a LOT of time to myself to learn it.

I can tell you that since then.  I lost 59 of the 100lbs that I gained, though it has taken some time. I am MUCH happier. I got through a HORRIBLE and dark depression,  I did it with no medication.  While I acknowledge that meds are useful to many, it was notthe way I wanted to go.  I had a doctor offer to prescirbe me anti-depression meds but I declined.  All I know is that I was able to overcome that darkness.  Granted it took me several years.  But as of right now.  I am 41, still not thin, look in the mirror and see a cute woman with a happiness and light in her eyes where there used to reflect darkness, pain, and suffering. I did that.  I worked on myself.  Most of all NOONE makes me feel inferior EVER because I KNOW my self-worth.

For ANY PERSON that feels the darkness, sadness, depression and deep pit that you fall more into everyday, I PROMISE you that if you TRULY want to you can some out of it.  I know that I did.  Once I did, I found my happiness within myself and eventually found my life partner, husband, and best friend. If you want to - comment below- tell me your success story, or just your story.  I am ahppy to listen and help in any way that I can.

Life is NOT HOPELESS, YOU are NOT WORTHLESS< and YOU do have the power to change, if you want.